Humbling Confession

I'm just going to Copy and Paste what I said to a friend about something that went down tonight...

-a month and a half ago, I was at a bar, and I facebooked a coment about a particular female bartender

-something along the lines of "I see you female bartender. I know what you're doing. I'm not tipping you extra."

-a friend called me out on it, and I promised to apologize for it

-tonight I finally had the opportunity to do so

-she didnt know who I was

-or when

-or even what I looked like

-but what I said was totally shitty, and I felt bad for it

-once I proclaimed that the statement was mine, she was clearly offended

-because she had heard that it had happened

-she (and her friend) preceded to tear into me

-I told them both that I deserved it

-that it was shitty of me

-I shouldn't have said it

-I told her that she didnt have to accept my apology, but that I had to apologize for it

-finally, after what felt like an eternity, she accepted my apology

-earlier she had said that I should buy her a drink

-sadly I had to tell her I was out of cash, but I would happily put a drink on credit

-I bought her a drink and she accepted

-she introduced herself to me

-I'm not saying I gained a friend

-but I sacked up and did what was right

-I kept my cool

-but when it was all over, I was super cotton mouthed

-her friend asked "why? is it because you're high right now?"

-"not at all! it's because I just exposed my heart to you two, and you set it on fire"

-I even said, "this is just where I am in my life right now" and the friend really got in my face about it
-Saying stuff like, "Why!? Are you always super shitty to woman and now you're apologizing for it?"
-I couldn't explain myself because it wasn't her fight to meddle in, but it's just how I've been feeling in 2011.
-Super honest and open. A new Spider.
-I did follow up to the subject with, "No. I've just been really super jaded when it comes to women, and I said something that you didn't deserve. I don't know anything about you. It wasn't fair of me to say something like that."

So yeah... totally humbled and I'm a little high strung right now.


EDIT:

After the fact...

pondering

I wonder what she thinks of me

now

now that she has a face to go with the comment

but I really can't burden myself with that

what's done is done
She has been reignited to the inflammation now
I'm not worried about ever showing my face at that place again
all of the other staff love me
Again... What's done is done...

EDIT:
Remembered she served me a beer semi recently. Both the beer and her service were cold.